Things that make me happy 😊
What makes me happy?
Before we answer that question let me tell you what happiness means for me.
TBH, I feel like happiness is overrated.
In reality, you cannot be always happy right. You are a bundle of different emotions and some of these emotions can’t really be explained with just words.
One such feeling that I found is being content. It is more like you are satisfied and happy. I want to embrace the feeling of being content.
If you ask me when I feel the most content I can say that it is mostly when I’m by myself, when I eat out alone, when I drive alone at night through the yellow street light lit streets of Kochi...etc.
I had thought that I've have found solace in being alone.
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But, that doesn’t mean that I’m not happy when I am not alone. With the right people, I can be, and sometimes when I talk to some stranger or when someone talks to me about their innermost feelings or when I see a happy couple or the laugh of a grandpa/ma.
I feel the most content with another person when that person doesn't make me feel like I'm with someone else. (I don't know if that reveals the mild narcissistic side of me 😐😅)
And yeah my happiness is not very well defined yet.
Sometimes I might be happy when I’m crying or when I'm having my worst time. I remember that day when I went for a solo ride to Munnar and I met with a small accident. I was weirdly laughing all the way back just because I survived and learned a lesson. It was a whole new experience. Failure makes me happy more than success.
I'm weirdly happy when someone says I'm wrong.
There is another kind of happiness or an elevated state of mind we can say that is made artificially. Like when having alcohol or when listening to good music or a movie or something. But I feel that's a temporary feeling.
Then there is another kinda happiness. Sometimes we might not acknowledge we are happy. Because that kinda happiness is not defined by physical changes but right from the heart/soul (if you believe in that). It might not be visible to others because we are in a state of inner peace.
If you ask me, I've been that kinda happy/content for so long but no right now I guess. Right now I'm in a state of escapism.
Well, I lost my happy pill.
There's this saying,
Don't give your secret key to happiness to someone else.
But, stupid me, I did.
Right now I'm in search of that key, inside me.
It is a tough journey. Wish me luck :)
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